could reconcile himself to sharing a throne
with me.
Truly, Theodat, I doubt that you have given proper thought to what you are doing. Is it possible
that after I have given you a great kingdom, after I have made you master of the Ostrogoths and
of all Italy, you might relegate me to this tiny island of Martana, located
in the middle of a lake, where barely a small castle could find its place? No, Theodat, let's
not hide the truth. The place of my exile could rather be called my prison, even my
tomb. Perhaps I will meet my executioners there thinking I would meet my guards, and
maybe even that while I am speaking to you, you find my speech annoying simply
because it holds off the fatal hour of my death. However, you can still refrain from completing
the crime you are about to commit. Reflect, Theodat, on what you are about to
undertake. My death may yet cost you your life. Immortalize your name by means other
than ingratitude. Do not begin your reign with an injustice and let the rectification of a
bad intention make you adopt a better one. Consider that if I had not wanted you to reign, I would not have made you king, and it is hard to believe that I would have lifted you to the
throne only to send you plummeting into the abyss. So, what do you fear from me? Or rather, what
shouldn't you fear if you exile me? Do you think the Ostrogoths and the Italians
will endure that Theodoric's daughter is undignifiedly treated by a man they already disliked
when he was at the same rank as they were? This secret hatred they have for you will burst forth as soon as they find a pretext. They will seek to avenge my affront and to take their own revenge.
Thus, without my direct involvement in your fall, my fate will topple the throne on which I have
placed you.
The insult you do me is not only aimed at me. All the kings of earth should be
preoccupied with it. And you have neighbors who, under the pretext of defending my innocence or avenging
my death, will invade parts of your domains. If fate had treated me differently, if
I had lost the throne in another way, if my subjects had rebelled, if Emperor
Justinian had waged war on me, if Belisarius had triumphed over me, if a conqueror had usurped my
kingdom, I would take solace more easily. But to see that with my own hand, I have
torn off my crown to give it to my persecutor, that is what tests both
all my courage and all my honor. What, Theodat! You can see me, at the foot of the same
throne where I saw you just a while ago, both as a loyal subject and as a complainant? You can see
me there, unjustly condemned to perpetual exile, having committed no other crime in my life than to have
bestowed sovereign power upon you? Perhaps this is also how heaven
is punishing me for my decision, so that all the injustices you commit may be avenged
on me, and so that I may taste myself what you will surely let others taste? Yet,
since my intentions were very genuine, I cannot excuse myself for what I did for
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